Yesterday, I wrote:
I care a lot about how I am perceived by others.
I pretend to myself that I don't care much. And I want others to think that I don't care much.
I have been thinking more about this.
I can imagine what it would feel like not to care much. And in that picture, I feel free and light.
And I can do what I can imagine. Acting as if I don't care much seems straight-forward. And the mind will adapt. This seems like a great path to explore.
Probably, I have been doing that already to some extent without being aware.